It's based off a melody from my homeworld. I know humans don't have the hearing range to pick up the differences in the notes. The only person who came close knew a lullaby that blended into it perfectly, and she passed it on to her family.
[Natasha was...different, to say the least. Special. While Naomi was too, it was also a different kind of special and different, even though they were both very similar as well. Natasha, however, had picked up on his music in a way that most humans didn't.]
[It honestly had never occurred to Gai that Juggler might simply not have the same type of hearing that he did. He'd already figured out that most people couldn't "hear" the same distant cries for help that he could, but not being able to pick up the subtle notes of the orbnica any better than a human could?
It's probably for the best that he doesn't mention this to Juggler. He doesn't want him to start thinking that it's another thing to be hard on himself about.]
He usually makes grand displays. I don't know if that's what he likes in return, but...
[But Gai cannot do "grand" if his life depended on it. Nor can he really handle it either.]
[Maybe he needs to mention it in some way. To make it clearer to Juggler
that he has been trying, in a way that Juggler hasn't picked up on. It's
difficult to do that for either Gai or Juggler without sounding accusatory
or defensive. It's sure not simple. But maybe he does need to tell him
about it in some way.]
What kind of grand display are you thinking of? There might be some virtue
in something smaller?
You can't fix everything in one big gesture, as you know. I think the part
to put the most energy into has to be the part where it's meaningful,
whether it's big or small. Something that shows that you've been listening
to him, to what he's been telling you about how he feels. Something that
shows that you have a good understanding of his heart, and that you really
want to work with him to address the issues between you guys, because you
care about him.
If you don't want to do that, of course. If you don't want to spend time
with him, if you can't see benefit from it, that's up to you. It's your
prerogative, Gai.
I don't mean with any of this that he's flawless and all the mistakes have
been yours. You two would have to work together, to find the places in your
hearts that hurt, and help each other heal them.
But I understand that it wasn't right for the two of you.
Can you think of something special that he likes? Doesn't have to be big or
expensive. Just something specific to him, that you can buy him or do for
him.
Then think about something to say. Something that tells him what you've
been saying to me. That you want to be with him, and you want to make
things better between you. You can include the negative things if you need
to, but I think he probably won't assume that you saying 'I want to be with
you' means that you're no longer shadowed by your mutual past.
[That's easy, to the point that Gai feels like it's incredibly shallow. He runs a hand through his hair and tries again.]
He's picky about his tastes. He liked Black Star's, though. And it was the one place we could go, even when we were at each other's throats, where we could have a truce.
[He sighs.]
The old man shut it down, though. He didn't even get a chance to see Juggler before he closed up shop.
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Date: 2019-09-19 03:24 am (UTC)[Natasha was...different, to say the least. Special. While Naomi was too, it was also a different kind of special and different, even though they were both very similar as well. Natasha, however, had picked up on his music in a way that most humans didn't.]
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Date: 2019-09-20 03:43 am (UTC)[Gamu grins. Always delighted to learn something new.]
That's incredible, Gai.
And explains a lot.
So how do we help Juggler to hear it, and how do we help you to communicate with him in other ways?
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Date: 2019-09-20 05:27 pm (UTC)It's probably for the best that he doesn't mention this to Juggler. He doesn't want him to start thinking that it's another thing to be hard on himself about.]
He usually makes grand displays. I don't know if that's what he likes in return, but...
[But Gai cannot do "grand" if his life depended on it. Nor can he really handle it either.]
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Date: 2019-09-21 08:45 am (UTC)[Maybe he needs to mention it in some way. To make it clearer to Juggler that he has been trying, in a way that Juggler hasn't picked up on. It's difficult to do that for either Gai or Juggler without sounding accusatory or defensive. It's sure not simple. But maybe he does need to tell him about it in some way.]
What kind of grand display are you thinking of? There might be some virtue in something smaller?
You can't fix everything in one big gesture, as you know. I think the part to put the most energy into has to be the part where it's meaningful, whether it's big or small. Something that shows that you've been listening to him, to what he's been telling you about how he feels. Something that shows that you have a good understanding of his heart, and that you really want to work with him to address the issues between you guys, because you care about him.
If you don't want to do that, of course. If you don't want to spend time with him, if you can't see benefit from it, that's up to you. It's your prerogative, Gai.
I don't mean with any of this that he's flawless and all the mistakes have been yours. You two would have to work together, to find the places in your hearts that hurt, and help each other heal them.
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Date: 2019-10-19 03:08 am (UTC)[Things that Gai felt incredibly awkward with. He wasn't the kind of person who could dress himself up or be comfortable in situations like that.]
I want to spend time with him. But I don't know how to convey my feelings, or how to fix anything that I've done.
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Date: 2019-10-28 02:19 am (UTC)[Gamu smiles] That sounds really nice.
But I understand that it wasn't right for the two of you.
Can you think of something special that he likes? Doesn't have to be big or expensive. Just something specific to him, that you can buy him or do for him.
Then think about something to say. Something that tells him what you've been saying to me. That you want to be with him, and you want to make things better between you. You can include the negative things if you need to, but I think he probably won't assume that you saying 'I want to be with you' means that you're no longer shadowed by your mutual past.
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Date: 2019-11-02 04:50 am (UTC)[That's easy, to the point that Gai feels like it's incredibly shallow. He runs a hand through his hair and tries again.]
He's picky about his tastes. He liked Black Star's, though. And it was the one place we could go, even when we were at each other's throats, where we could have a truce.
[He sighs.]
The old man shut it down, though. He didn't even get a chance to see Juggler before he closed up shop.
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Date: 2019-11-03 07:43 am (UTC)Do you have a chance of finding another type of coffee that he likes?
Or is there some kind of food that he likes? Something he reads? Clothes he prefers?
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Date: 2019-11-04 01:58 am (UTC)[That does bring something to mind, though.]
There were a few good memories there, though.